I don't have any children, so I must admit that the important issues Aime discussed aren't issues I've had to deal with or consider. Conference time is my time plain and simple. OK, maybe not plain and simple.
I've been thinking about conference papers--and more generally of conferences--as sites for either positive collaborative thinking or (less positively) another notch in the old CV. Of course others have written about the good, the bad, and the boring conference already.
Lately, I've been thinking about sharing ideas. Here's what I mean: the panel I was on at the Cineflux conference was made up of a new group of collaborators. My colleagues have recently been successful in the competition for a SSHRC Research Creation Grant and I am a collaborator (eeek!) We are a film maker, a sculptor/installation artist, an urban anthropologist, an independent artist, a technology specialist and digital artist, a design specialist, and me. This is our project. When we got together this weekend the aim and intent was to share ideas, to inspire and inform one another, and to begin to think about how out work in different disciplines could productively cross-pollenate to create new ways of experiencing urban space.
I realized that everyone else on the team has been used to working collaboratively save for me. Now if you look at my CV you'll notice that I go out of my way to think, practice, and write about collaboration in the Humanities. ...But as we well know co-authorship and other collaborative work isn't yet valued in the same ways in all disciplines. There are some good reasons--and less good reasons--for that but what I'm really interested in is the way in which I'm only just getting used to sharing my BIG (read: research) ideas with other people. Before they've germinated.
I did not have the kind of MA of PhD experience in which I would show my supervisors conference papers before I gave them. Sure, we worked on my thesis and dissertation together, but any work I did on the side was my own. I wonder why? I certainly could have showed it to either of those women, they would have read, responded, offered useful commentary. It never occurred to me though. I have been under the unconscious impression for such a long time now that I shouldn't show my works in progress until they are more or less polished. That's hurt me, I think. Perhaps I was influenced by the endemic fear that circulates amongst many graduate students of having my ideas stolen. Granted, there are certainly cases where that happens but I'm coming to believe that giving my ideas public breathing space is the best way to make them mine, and make them better.
In the last year or so I have been trading drafts with colleagues. I'll admit, I find it is still TERRIFYING. I often catch myself thinking some version of the fraud narrative: will I be revealed as a novice/idiot/charlatan now? (note that I clearly have blocked the fact that many writers, especially creative writers, show their work all the time in workshops and with editors. Hmm, good model, no?) In reality though the result has been that my work is stronger, more fully articulated, and sounder for this sharing.
What about you? Do you share your work with colleagues/writing groups/an editor before it is fully finished?