|Grey January skies over Lake Ontario|
So, what is there to do? I'm not one for sports metaphors in general, but it looks like the running one is a refrain here at H&E, so I'll just re-iterate it. We're in it for the long haul, so we might as well pace ourselves. The Winter term has only just started, so I know it feels like if you don't write that proposal, you'll be written out of that Conference, which is so germane to your larger research project that missing it will cause an irreparable gap in your CV, and potential questions from your doctoral committee, hiring committee, peers, etc. But really? Chill! Unless you're on the organizing committee, nobody will question your absence, especially these days. Why not take that time that you'd frantically put to inking yet another argument to letting your brain do some unguided rambling? Take the resources you'd put into going to that conference (money, time, physical effort, missed sleep) into translating your brain's free ramblings into writing. No, I mean it literally: how long would the travel take you? Translate that into writing time over multiple days. Actually sleep the sleep you'd otherwise miss by going to the airport at ungodly hours because you can only afford the 7 am flight. Take it easier on yourself, the environment, and the academic ecosystem.
Try ditching one of the major academic events that you engage in per year, and do the accounting on it, bank those resources, and use them elsewhere. Then do the tally. [I know economic metaphors are not much better than sports ones, but that's all I got just now, when the lesson plan for the class that starts in two hours, for the course I'd never taught before, beckons. See how I'm pacing myself here?] If there's one thing I wish we could do more is turn inwardly, and actually understand what it is we want to do. As researchers, we spend so much time trying to make sure we're abreast of what everyone else in the field is saying. As teachers, not only do we have to prepare the material, we also expend an immeasurable amount of emotional labour ensuring our classes are open and our students feel welcome and engaged in the process.
So, at this begging of term, instead of resolving to work more, be more productive, write more, do more grading, please ask yourself "What's the healthiest way to accomplish what *I* really want?"